what the fuck is going on in my life.
Not even a question. Just a cry of frustration.

I've got way too many things going on in my head right now, and I don't know what to say about them. I'm partially ashamed of these thoughts and just plain frustrated with other things.

I have some relief when I hung out with Henry today or texted to Rachel and Ty. Even watching my brother's game, which still bored me quite a lot, was a little bit of relief.

Ugh. I don't even know what to do at this point.
I can't even sleep because I've been having these crazy warped dreams and waking up at all hours of the night.

69. Annoyance

Honestly, it doesn't take much to set me off. Like right now, for example. I'm really bored. And the fact that I'm so bored is irritating the hell out of me.
Seriously? I can't think of anything to do? Well I can, but it's nothing that I really want to do.
So I'm sitting here, stewing in my annoyance.
-__-

"There is not one thing
that I would not do for you
just to see you smile."
— Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson.

he makes me smile, so I try to return the favor :]

Going to Disneyland tomorrow. Should be good fun.
Plus, I got the three day park hopper, so I can go twice more within the next 45 days.
I better go at least once with my Boston girls because I'm gonna miss you girls like crazy and I feel like I'm not hanging with you two enough.
I miss you already! <3333

82. Can You Hear Me?

Yes. He can.
My boyfriend is a stalker.
Shoot. The one medium I thought I had left to communicate that he didn't follow my every move has been taken ;]

11:11
well when i started writing, it was.
and just so ya know, I was never one to really truly believe in wishing before 2 months and 12 days ago. Not that I counted or anything. Maybe it's fate, or coincidence, or a curse, but things have worked out.

He's so damn good to me, it's kinda freaky. And this is really gonna inflate his ego.
Alvin, don't you dare read this (even though I know you will).

You know those standards you set up for future boyfriends?
I'm not even sure where he stands there.
Of course I asked for ridiculously handsome, tall, and good at surfing.
Unfortunately, he's none of these, but I still overlook it for how easily I can talk to him, the way he treats me, and how understanding he is.
He gets pluses in the funny, smart, romantic, honest, and silly prerequisites.

God. The ego. I can already sense it coming once he reads this ;]

I think the only downside is I realize just how jealous and insecure I am. I already knew it mostly, but I think it's gotten worse. haha.
oh well.

72. Mischief Managed

Well, this post is delayed as I meant to save this theme for directly after graduation. However, my obsession with Tumblr meant my blog here became quite neglected. haha

Well high school is over and done. I'm gonna miss the crazy fools I hung out with and love, but we'll still be crazy and foolish together in college.
We're onto bigger and better things now :]